My Feeling

I don`t know what should I say anymore, it seems I have poured all my feeling to Her here. OK, I`m speaking about my feeling that says that I have been a joke to Her. One of the prove is when I send SMS to Her, She replied “he….he”. this is a prove that She laugh me. It`s OK, She treats me this way, because She reasonable do it. It`s no wonder if She becomes arrogant, because, it`s a fact. But my feeling to Her, my admire to Her (if it`s not allowed to say love) will never fade just because this simple matter……, at least until this time. Our companionship is so short, but I can`t help my feeling to Her. It seems I feel loosing something since She`s going. If it has been, everything can`t stop my feeling. The only thing that can stop this acting. Eventhough the world laughs me, I will never change my feeling to Her, this is the important, “It`s The Power of Love”. My feeling also says that my love “engages in clapping for one hand”, but I will stay facing it wisely and I confess to my defeat. I can`t afford to hate Her, maybe I just want to try to forget Her. If my love engages in clapping for one hand, I am an easy going, and I hate lies, so, very many things in my behavior that show these. I wish, the person I write here also does the same things. Chatting shout hating loathing shout loathing, I just write what I feel in me to Her. It`s not negative thinking. I am sorry if I hurt your heart. I love you anyway………….

My Thanks

To my adoration, I`d like to say thanks, U have given me inspiration to make more website, that I have been letting it. My hobby is “internet surfing”, but making this kind of website is because of you. Thanks, you may be proud to have been my inspiration, because it`s proper to you. You may appraise me as like as you want, but I still owe to you. Thanks to you, and of course “I Love You”……….

Who is Her?

This website, I made as my hearts feeling. I feel lazy to make a diary, besides books are needed, diary can`t share to “netter” in this world. Anyway I present this website to somebody I have admiring, that I haven`t know Her for long time but I have been brief to conclude if She is a kind girl. Maybe if somebody else wont be brief to conclude somebody`s personal on a short time, so I am not a kind of man like that. The one I admire has gone leaving me, leave my missing. But, does She care about me? Who am I?
I am “no one”. And for me, She is “someone”. Whatever Her feeling to me, revolted, hate, or everything, the most important I wont change my feeling to Her. It`s my admire feeling ang my love. As far as this time (since She`s gone) we often contact by phone. I state all that feeling to Her, because I am honest person, so it doesn`t become load in me. But honestly, it may become a boomerang to me if She respons by hate. But, for this matter I don`t want to “pre judgement” first, let Her determine everything is up to Her. The most important are I admire and love Her. Who is Her??? She is special girl for me. I wish for Her so that every Her hope and want are realized. Good luck my love…..

Looser

Looser, maybe this word is suitable for me. I don’t only fail to get love, but also it have made me fall in front of someone I love. It’s the result of my acts. I don’t only play fire, but I have lit fire in the gasoline. This time is the time that I want to avoid, but what can I do, because of God`s desire, that happen. This life seems stopping in the middle of my falling. It seems the time stop, no past and no future. Now a days, there is only I become “looser”.

Diary June 2007

June 2007, I know a very familiar girl, sociable, and I admire Her. That meeting is very short so She leaves me. From this separation, I feel loosing Her. I very missed Her at the time She leaves me. I call Her by phone and state I miss her. I don’t know what She thought, revolted, hate, angry? Or what ever? But only me feel this feeling. And about Her sense, I don’t know. And my feeling says that She considers me as “no one”. And I think that`s right, because I`m not Her`s. Oh my God, if I may wish and realize my wish, I just wish one thing, “unite our love forever. Please”. Amien